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Have you gotten tired of going out all the time?

I think I’m getting to that point. I’m not quite there yet, but there are times when I politely decline invites to go out because I just want be home and read. Although, I never say no to Karaoke and drinking

Anyways, the month of June was one big mish mash of events one after the other after the other. My running has taken a backseat because of all the parties and get togethers that happened. Graduation, concerts, E3, Lakers winning (Go Lakers! Haha BOSTON SUCKS), weddings, drinking and of course karaoke . Add traveling, and I am just exhausted.

The month of July started off with a bang as well, and looking at my social calendar, I have events happening every single weekend and a bunch of weeknights as well. Oh good Lord, please give me (and my liver ) the strength to party away

Yet, however busy I am, I still miss Uriel. There I said it. I miss Uriel. I hate it. I seriously wish I don’t miss him anymore, yet I still do. He probably has a girlfriend already, and just the thought of that makes my heart ache.

While I was in Hawaii, I thought of Uriel and I asked God to send me a sign if things will be better between Uriel and I. The next day, as I was sorting through my cash, I found a dollar bill with a note on the side that says “Don’t give up on love”. I don’t know if that’s the sign that I asked God for, but it gave me hope. I just want to be friends again, at least. I miss his friendship.

I await the day we become friends again. Until then…

Wow, it’s been a while since I wrote something. Well, in case anyone wants to know, I’ve been busy partying. As in hardcore partying. Too much in fact. As in, I’m out until-the-sun-is-up-the-next-morning type of partying.

My life does not suck. Not at all.

Oh and I walk on Saturday at UCLA. I get to wear my master’s cap n gown.

I sometimes miss Uriel, but his loss because I am awesome. More awesome than before. Seriously. So, I win!

I had the BEST and unforgettable weekend ever! Saturday, 4/10, I went to Las Vegas to see Muse and they totally rocked it! Muse’s concert is definitely one of my favorite concerts.

The next day, I flew from Las Vegas to SFO and drove an hour to Napa Valley to see my favorite band in the world: Backstreet Boys! And guess what? I met them! I shook AJ and Howie’s hands. Nick and Brian both gave me a tight hugged hug each. I was in HEAVEN!
And, I went to both events by myself and I don’t feel like a loser. In fact, I feel independent. I’m not going to miss out on opportunities and events just because no one else wants to go with me. So, go me!

Oh and I don’t know those girls in the picture with me prior to this event. I just met them at the concert and they are so cool!

And can you tell who my favorite is?

This is absolutely brilliant! The geek in me is crying in joy watching this pure genius. Enjoy!

I am officially done with grad school! Hooray! I just receive my final grade and I got an A-!!! Wohoo! I’m graduating!

Wow, can’t believe it’s over. What a ride it was.

Huge thanks to Uriel for all his help during the beginning of my masters program. I wish I can thank him personally. Maybe, in time I’ll be able to. If you are reading this and you know Uriel, please tell him thank you.

Wow, I now have a masters degree in computer engineering! I feel so accomplished!

I just got home right now from a fun night of dinner, movie, drinks, karaoke, and fast food. I know I got home “late”, or early, depends on how you see it (it is after all 5:30am PST right now).

Something weird is happening. I think I’m being paranoid, or maybe it’s just me, but I swear my friend (who I have a crush on) is trying to hook me up with his friend. Why can’t the guys I’m attracted to like me back for once.

Figures things like this will happen to me.

Okay, I’m off and going to try to sleep. I’m wide awake though.

I’ve always wanted to learn how to ski. Last year, Uriel took me to my first ever skiing trip. It was during Valentine’s day. It was the last trip I made in DC that was on a happy occasion and good terms with Uriel. Sigh, I miss him a lot =(.

Anyways, I took a lesson and during the lesson in the slope, I fell in a ditch by a tree. The whole ordeal gave me a bad experience, and ever since then, even though I kept trying, I could never master skiing. Well not master per se, I just couldn’t get the hang of it. Even though I did okay skiing, there was still this fear that I would fall in a ditch and it would literally start a panic attack, so whenever I gain speed, I try to stop and fall on my ass.

This year, after a disastrous skiing trip,( a snowboarder snowboarded into me hard while I was in line to go on the ski lift for a second run, and I fell and hit my head hard on the ground. Told you there is something not right with me and skiing =) ), at the urge of my sister and my cousin, I decided to to try my hand (legs) at snowboarding. Lo and behold, I kick ass at snowboarding! My cousin and her boyfriend taught me the basics and I pretty much got the hang of it after 30 mins of going up and down the bunny slopes. I even know how to break! (I really have a hard time breaking while skiing).

I’ve gone snowboarding three times this season already, and I’m becoming really good at it. I’ve gone skiing three times, and I have never gotten better, but with snowboarding, I can go down the slopes without falling on my ass. I should have gone snowboarding from the start!

I wish I can snowboard with Uriel. I want him to see how I rock at snowboarding. Heck, I can even go in the lifts and get off without falling on my ass. Sadly, I can wish all I want, but I know he would never speak to me again. =(

I really don’t like missing Uriel. I’m hoping tomorrow’s and the weekend’s festivities would take me out of this funk. Weekend calls for tons of food and alcohol, and hopefully some karaoke =)

Here’s a cool video I want to share. Uriel would love this:

You all know that I miss Uriel a lot when I post on this blog. So I guess this week is just one of those weeks when I miss him more than normal since I’ve been posting more.

I miss totally geeking out with him and telling him when something cool happens. Like last week, I went to see Shutter Island with my friend and one of my friend’s friend is dating the guy who played Viktor in Dollhouse. I saw a movie with Viktor from Dollhouse! And I sat next to him during the whole movie. I mean, when I told my other friends, they were like, who? But I bet, if I could tell Uriel, he’d be totally psyched because he would know who I am talking about.

So, I drowned my sadness with tons of karaoke and drinking and eating junk food that night. Haha, I really had a fabulous time that night, but it made me miss Uriel more. I was doing so well in not missing him often.

Sigh.

Okay, I tried. It’s not going to happen. I tried dating. I can only be friends with guys right now, nothing more. I can’t force it. It’s not fair because my heart is not in it.

At least I tried.

I found this song apropo…well because I always thought Uriel was my guardian angel.. I was doing so well, however, minor setbacks like this are to be expected. It’s okay to miss someone you love once in a while right?

I shouldn’t have walked away
I would’ve stayed if you said
We could’ve made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I’m still on the ground

Oh babe, the angels cry